This sounds a bit like me…ok a lot like me. But I also have to cover up all of that and fake being happy in order to stave off some of the judging.
I believe I have finally discovered something that explains my issues with social interactions and relationships! I know I am an introvert, and shy, and have difficulties interacting with people, but I haven’t been able to figure out whether I actually have a disorder or not. I don’t fit the description of someone with Bi-polar disorder or Borderline Personality disorder, which my mother and grandmother suffered from. I haven’t yet been diagnosed, but I am almost sure I have Avoidant Personality Disorder.
I have been having symptoms since I was in high school. I am not *afraid* of people, and don’t necessarily have a general phobia of socializing. It’s not that simple. I am afraid of being judged or ridiculed by people I don’t know or trust. Perhaps it stems from having a mother who was extremely judgmental of everyone around her, including me. She was unstable; some days very…
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