Yay! I’ve started my first creative writing class. I have never been more scared in my life. I can’t speak for other authors, but for me I’ve always been scared to put my work out there. I remember the first day I nervously put my first book, Touchdown Interruption, I was shaking so bad. Watching Amazon flip my book from the preparing stage, to published was agonizing. Then of course when it didn’t sell, self doubt and depression started to sink in. Eventually it did sell and I was in a happy little bubble. Until the time came for my second and third books to come out. Each time my bubble being popped a little earlier as I thought about working on the next book.
What does this have to do with my class? I mean none of this anxiety comes with turning in my assignments. Now I have to write on cue and the writing isn’t researched based. Our first assignment is writing a poem illustrating imagery of something in our surroundings. I have written a poem, but I don’t know if it is good enough. I don’t know for sure if it is what the teacher is looking for. To me it meets the sparsely stated requirements but that’s because I wrote it. I know the imagery I’m trying to convey, so rereading it brings the images I want. I think this class is going to kill me.